31st Dec 2011: Excitedly,
we land in Chennai, South India. The
last day of the year 2011. I have not
seen my parents in nearly 7 years. I
must say, the national carrier of Oman is not bad at all. After moving to Oman,
I have come to acquire a borrowed sense of patriotism. I love this country, love its people and love
its ruler. His Majesty Sultan Quaboos, without
a doubt is a wise rule. He is adored by
his people. A very elusive personality,
who shuns the limelight and would prefer to spread his character as a doer and
not a talker. Unlike, the fellow rulers
around the region who flaunt their new found wealth from black gold. Who throw their wealth around in ways that it
takes more than the average persons creativity to do.
My lovely
partner and I see my parents wave at me from the lounge, as we impatiently wait for our bags
at the baggage conveyor belt at Chennai International Airport. Finally, the moment arrives! I am standing in front of my parents. I hug them, holding back the emotions. The
emotions that I have had to carry all by
myself the last 2 years in particular.
This is not the time for that. This is one of those happy moments of 'mental
still-photography'. The picture is
stored. Ingrid, goes ahead to hire the
vehicle to my parents home. All fixed,
we get into the car, and head towards David Nagar. 25 odd kilometers from the
airport. Dosai, Iddly and all the
typical auxiliary that come along, and a sumptuous meal is consumed. It is one of those rare occasions where I enjoyed a
vegan dinner.
One week
gone, it is the 6th of January.
The new year is just in the process of setting itself into my mind. We are tired and exhausted after the
wonderful trip to India. I realize that I have missed my parents in the
last years. The next morning, all
emotions in me come to a concluding point.
I break down, and Ingrid is there for me to lend me her shoulder and
give me all the hugs and cuddles I need to be reassured. It is going to all
right.
Ingrid, has been my greatest strength the last year. I have had the misfortune, or if I may say the talent of attracting the worst of people as friends. I have lost friends that I have loved. I have had to explain and justify my actions to friends. It has not been easy. Still, through thick and thin, Ingrid has been my strength. The only strength. It is as if, I do not need anyone else. In that process, many a times I have mentally suffocated her. An unfair act on my part. Nevertheless, she has been by my side.
Ingrid, has been my greatest strength the last year. I have had the misfortune, or if I may say the talent of attracting the worst of people as friends. I have lost friends that I have loved. I have had to explain and justify my actions to friends. It has not been easy. Still, through thick and thin, Ingrid has been my strength. The only strength. It is as if, I do not need anyone else. In that process, many a times I have mentally suffocated her. An unfair act on my part. Nevertheless, she has been by my side.
It is the 21st of January 2012. The last week has
been smooth for me. Ingrid has been
tired. She has missed her period and is feeling fatigue, weak and an an aching
pain in her body. Maybe, we think she
might be pregnant. We laugh it off. But the feeling of tiredness has not moved
out in her. In a very
not-too-enthusiastic manner, we decide to get a home pregnancy kit. As I drop her at her work place at 4pm, we
buy a test-kit. The time is set, to carry
out the test. 9.30pm, after I pick her from work. A matter-of-fact thing we must do, just like
one would plan to finish a report before going to bed. Nothing to get all over the moon about. We open the test-kit, and I read
instructions as if it is an IKEA kitchen table we have to assemble. She
proceeds to the toilet. All instructions
are given, and I am standing outside the door.
All done, now we have to wait for 20 seconds. Never realized that 20 seconds could be that
long.
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